reckoning

I’m weary in so many ways
too tired to keep on trying
too wired to settle down
my fight has gone and run away
too stubborn to let go
the reckoning
I know
will have to wait another day

these blues are comfortable
surrender’s not so new
my time is full enough
I’ve lots of work to do
half-opened envelopes
pile up between my ears
while unloved melodies
amplify my fears
that my song will not be sung
that my doing comes undone

the world looks different today
more contrast
black and white
no longer shades of grey
no final verdict if I stay
or hang it up for good
too stubborn to let go
the reckoning
I know
will have to wait another day